I don't believe people's sexuality nature can change. The "change" we occasionally notice in us or in others is nothing but breaking out of invisible prison that society put as in soon after we are born - a necessary measure for easier control of vast amount of different personalities, desires, dreams and realities. Those lucky to break out are not changed, just free to be what they are in this uniform world.
Very rarely one have ability to escape the life barb wire without any help. We need a spark, a single or more events - that might feel extremely bad for us at the time, none the less they amplify our inner sexual nature and allows it to break through the set up barriers. When finally free, be prepared that other still imprisoned souls who are always around you, will try hard to pull you back into the faceless place you escaped from. At every step you will feel their fear, uneasiness and envy of those that are still trapped. Most of the time you will avoid interacting with enslaved spirits, but you will also have a opportunity to open the door to freedom for some of them. Many will refuse scared of unknown, as every long term prisoner will tell you - freedom can be a very scary proposition. Some will get out for a moment but soon run back to life of sexually acceptable norms where they feel comfortable and safe. Only few will keep on walking the new found path of self discovery.
Those of us that manage to escape are reborn free in one or more aspect of our life's. New found sexual freedom very often breeds freedom in artistic, political or social expression. What is important is that once when you jump over the prison walls in one aspect of your life, its much easier to leap over the next hurdle.
I found my sexual freedom at the age of 27 and never looked back. In lust I trust, just like old Christian Gnostic that never considered lust to be a deadly sin (actually lust was added to a deadly sin list several hundred years after the birth of Christianity). Early Christians were often starting their masses with orgies they believed are bonding their members closer to each other. Lust is pure eternal feeling constantly present in human mind, while love is something that we can feel or not at certain points of our life. Lust is liberating.
Very rarely one have ability to escape the life barb wire without any help. We need a spark, a single or more events - that might feel extremely bad for us at the time, none the less they amplify our inner sexual nature and allows it to break through the set up barriers. When finally free, be prepared that other still imprisoned souls who are always around you, will try hard to pull you back into the faceless place you escaped from. At every step you will feel their fear, uneasiness and envy of those that are still trapped. Most of the time you will avoid interacting with enslaved spirits, but you will also have a opportunity to open the door to freedom for some of them. Many will refuse scared of unknown, as every long term prisoner will tell you - freedom can be a very scary proposition. Some will get out for a moment but soon run back to life of sexually acceptable norms where they feel comfortable and safe. Only few will keep on walking the new found path of self discovery.
Those of us that manage to escape are reborn free in one or more aspect of our life's. New found sexual freedom very often breeds freedom in artistic, political or social expression. What is important is that once when you jump over the prison walls in one aspect of your life, its much easier to leap over the next hurdle.
I found my sexual freedom at the age of 27 and never looked back. In lust I trust, just like old Christian Gnostic that never considered lust to be a deadly sin (actually lust was added to a deadly sin list several hundred years after the birth of Christianity). Early Christians were often starting their masses with orgies they believed are bonding their members closer to each other. Lust is pure eternal feeling constantly present in human mind, while love is something that we can feel or not at certain points of our life. Lust is liberating.
I agree.
ReplyDeleteLust is liberating.
Having been born and raised in a conservative Catholic family in the midst of an even more conservative, bible-thumping evangelical community, I can't deny that I was once exhilarated by the sense of freedom when I finally leashed my natural lust.
But I will be the first to admit, things eventually got badly out of control.
A combination of circumstances eventually took me to the brink of sexual self-destruction.
I was financially successful, healthy, very physically fit and, had a job that required frequent, extensive international travel.
Appearing financially successful, healthy and very physically fit provides a serious advantage when a fellow goes out on a late night love safari in suburban Tulsa, Portland, Minneapolis or Phoenix. But appearing financially successful, healthy, very physically fit AND being very noticeable because you’re an American schmoozing the night away in Buenos Aires, Manila, Beijing or Jakarta is a wholly unfair advantage. As a consequence, I spent decades living the life of a child in a sexual candy store.
I always thought saying you were “addicted” to sex sounded like just an excuse for having no will power. I eventually found myself wanting to clean up my act and have a real and deep relationship with a wonderful woman but despite this fervent desire, found myself continually waking up next to women whose names I could not remember from the evening before.
It wasn't easy but I am cured, finally.
I am still horny all the time (well, except for about the first 20 minutes after I finish getting sticky) but I have managed to keep my nose (and other pointy parts) clean.
I am now an old man (just turned 60), more financially successful than ever, still work out and am told I look 45 instead of 60. I still travel internationally all the time and currently live in SE Asia. But I have 3 year-old twins, a 9-month old and another one on the way.
I am so relieved that life is unfair because after having spent most of my adult life being such a shit head, there is no way I deserve the wonderful family I have today.